Scarred

Scars, they don't heal. They are just forgotten or got used to. But when I look at these scars which I've got from a road accident almost ten years ago, I realized that, and (just to make an intellectual appeal) how our past makes us who we are today. It doesn't take a philosopher to tell you just that, but feeling it yourself in your gut is totally a different thing. Creeps you up.

Dulu dan sekarang

Ungkapan "dulu dan sekarang" satu ungkapan yang sangat cliche dan selalu sangat kita dengar..selain dari merupakan tajuk lagu popular Black Dog Bone yang agak sedap dikaraoke di kala melayan lagu2 melayu lama. Dalam mood2 sedih dan frust, ia menggambarkan betapa bestnye yang dulu berbanding yang sekarang. Tapi betul ke yang dulu lebih baik dari sekarang..?

 Pada aku barang2 lama ni terlalu overrated dan over appreciated yang membuatkan sesetengah orang bersikap nostalgik sebagai contohnya aku sendiri.hehe..Mesti kome biase dengar orang sembang membandingkan betapa bestnya yang dulu2 dengan yang sekarang.contohnya filem..lagu..dsb.

Kalau kita tgk dari segi filem...kita selalu cakap filem P. Ramlee memang takde tandingan. Tapi kene fikir jugak berapa banyak pulak filem selain filem P. Ramlee yang langsung tak best..pun banyak. Same je isunya dengan sekarang. Ada yang betul2 bagus dan ade yang hampeh. Tapi kalau yang dulu kita ingat yang best2 jer. Yang tak best semua kita lupa. Dengan senang2 kita generalize yang lama2 semuanya best. Lagu pun macam tu la jugak. Ini tidak adil..!!

Kesimpulannya, as much as we love the past, just keep an eye open for what's in front of you. Trust me..you're gonna look back at a lot of things of this era in 20-30 years from now.

Makan luar..

Masa aku kecik2 dulu makan kat luar ni merupakan satu bende yg sgt rare dan sgt best..biasenye kalau ade special occasion je. Biasenye kitorg akan makan kat kedai Pak Wan, berhampiran dengan rumah kami pada masa tu iaitu di Manjoi. Masa tu kedai tu yg sebenarnya agak2 quite nice je kalo dibandingkan dengan kedai2 zaman skrg dari segi menunya, tapi dengan ramai customernya..ade aiskrim lg..airnya pulak ade letak payung kecik dalam gelasnya membuatkan rase grand sangat pada masa tu. Apatah lagi kalo skali2 dapat makan fast food seperti KFC dan McD di pekan Ipoh.. memang marveles. Kala nak dikira, makan kat Medan Selera Taman Kanak2 (Children's Playground bak kate bapak aku)..pun dah kira best.Tapi sekarang boleh kate hampir tiap2 kali makan di luar..ade je bende yang menyakitkan hati dan perut. 

Yang aku paling tak gemor sangat adalah trend kedai2 makan sekarang yang letak prosedur bayor kat kaunter. Ape berat benor ke bontot deme ni x boleh nak collect duit kat meja? Yang dok kat kaunter pun bukannye tokeh..pekerja juga..boleh jimat bayor gaji ke kalo keje duduk kaunter je? Kita yang datang makan dengan perut tengah kenyang2 tu pulak jadi balaci kene beratur kat kaunter nak bayor.

Seperkara lagi biase le..regenye. Kalo rege naik tu jangan harap la barangnye pun bertambah...nak dapat yang sama mcm sebelum2nye pun dah seribu rahmat dah. Tapi yang sakit hati sekali, rege naik..makanannye makin ciput..rase macam longkang. 

Pernah minum teh tarik longkang?? Bab air ni pun sakit hati juga. Kadang2 ade juga kedai yang aku sound tepet jer. Sekarang ni trend buat teh tarik pakai susu cair pulak..warnanye mmg same..rasenye memang payau longkang la.Gula sah2 tak pakai..rege nah..RM1.30...best kan? Kalo gula naik sekupang sekilo, air pun naik sekupang...gula naik dokupang, air pun naik dokupang. Kejadahnya..deme buat air segelas pakai gula sekilo ke? Pegi kedai mamak..ayam goreng sketoi RM3-3.50.Kalo ade KFC dekat2 situ beli je ayam goreng ala carte 2 ketoi RM6.40..lagi puas ati..konfem sedap.

Aku bukan suke2 nak hentam diaorg ni..aku pun tau taraf hidup di Malaysia ni walaupun tak banyak serba sedkit dah meningkat berbanding dulu. Zaman aku kecik dulu, kalo takat jual karipap tepi jalan belum tentu cukup barang makan di rumah. Sekarang kalo jual karipap boleh pakai kete besor. Aku tak salahkan deme nak senang..tapi beragak le juga. Jangan sampai pelanggan terase dianiaya..tambah2 bab2 makan minum ni. Mentang2 la bukan nak bini diaorg yang makan...yang x habih dibawak ke esok..ntah elok ntah idak pun x tentu..biase je aku dapat nescafe / milo masam kat foodcourt2 shopping complex. Bab kebersihan toksah harap sangat la. Tawakkal jer. 

Kot mane pun..biase2kan le makan di rumah..masak sendiri.. Kalo skali-skala nak makan char kuey tiaw ke..bihun tomyam ke..roti canai ke gi le ke luor. Kang kalo order bende2 tu kat rumah kang ade yang kene backhand lak nanti..huhu..

Things I'd like to do in my lifetime..

I wouldn't put it under 'azam tahun baru' coz that would be bluffing since I'm not planning to do any one of it this year..just a note to myself about the things I'd like to do given the opportunity.. Well, here's the list...

1. Write a fantasy novel

2. Write a good bluesy rock song

3. Go to Wakken Heavy Metal Festival in Germany

4. Record a song played by myself alone (an own song or a cover would do)

5. Build a home studio

6. Go scuba diving

7. Get a pet tortoise

8. Make babies??..huhu 

..no bungee jumping for me though

2012 - Invitation

 

I don't see why I have to announce my first posting for this year...like some others do..but heck, I just like the sound of it. I'm not gonna give you the "I'm aiming to write more post this year" crap or anything though because it's just wrong..unless writing is not your interest and the only reason you're blogging is just to generate the Nuffnang income (which I fail to do obviously) well then..yes. 

What I mean is you shouldn't be troubled just by how you lack doing something you love. But then, that does mean something doesn't it? It means that you already have something better to do which you enjoy more..or.. maybe you're just piled up by tons of shit from the office and have no time to spare for anything you'd like to do which turns you into one big loser with no life!

Well..the last last time I did a flashback of the year was in 2007 (the only year apparently) and that's the only year I have something clever to say. Up until last year...hmmm,hmmm, and hmmm all the way.

But let me see..there should be something worth mentioning that happened last year, right?...maybe I'll just get back to this next year eh?

The Pursuit Of Greatness

The pursuit of greatness..Is it from inspiration, is it envy or is it greed that leads us to the temptation of being superior, iconic or even legendary? Is it possible that our deeds and virtues would be told and sung by like the legends of old? Is it still possible in today's world locomotion where everything has to be quick thus bound to be meaningless?

Today it's easier being inspired by a movie character than a real life figure. The kindle is usually something that moves you on the inside. It's like what it feels after watching Forrest in Forrest Gump, Archilles in Troy, or William Wallace in Braveheart. You can hear the screaming urge of your inner self struggling, trying to break free..maybe something like the Hulk inside Bruce Banner or Eddie Brock and his alien symbiote in Spiderman.

If the urge is strong, it will stay for a week or two, influencing your thoughts and acts and after a while it withers until you become you again. Then I begin to wonder if I myself could be something that of what makes them special. There's no war here like in Tolkien's Middle Earth to become a legendary warrior..of course I am no king to rule a land of miracles. Our world now lacks of giving the opportunity for us to appreciate and indulge into something that we admire and passionate about. It's all about the end result and never about the journey. Time is inexpendable.

William Wallace: Yes, I've heard. Kills men by the hundreds. And if HE were here, he'd consume the English with fireballs from his eyes, and bolts of lightning from his arse.

But then they say that great people does not need opportunity. They stand out from people..they push through the barriers and create what they have designed for themselves. That is their quality.

Every man dies, not every man really lives

Those who inspire people become what they they not by chance nor by fate alone. It's because of who they are what they're made of..and of course from that comes the deeds that follow. Then I started thinking that not everybody have the capacity to become great. Something of that magnitude would usually need a lifelong dedication and sacrifice to be achieved, which comes naturally to the special ones.Well maybe I should just settle for mediocrity..heheh..

My dead babies!!

Baru minggu lepas ikan aku yang comel, Shin Chan (sblm ini dikenali sbg Nagano) mati..semalam Shiro (Makoto) yang cantik pulak mati..my poor babies..Minggu lepas Shin Chan mati lemas pasal filter tersumbat. Shiro lak tiba2 je mati. Mungkin sedih Shin Chan dah mati kot.

So far diaorg berdua ni la ikan yang paling lame aku pernah bela sejak kecil. Dari aku duduk di rumah Tmn Meru sampai la aku berpindah kerja di KL..aku rase dkt setahun stengah kot. Dari kecik kurus sampai la cute dan debab macam mummy diaorg..hehe. Dulu kecik2 mak aku belikan aku ikan emas paling lame 2 hari je tahan pasal bela dalam balang plastik yang takde pam oksigen. Yang idup lame skit pun ikan guppy kecik tu je..tak payah pam pun.

Dua ekor ikan emas aku ni ikan emas paling cantik aku pernah jumpe. First time aku nampak kat kedai aquarium kat Greentown Mall Ipoh terus aku beli walaupun harga agak mahal (banding dengan ikan2 lain aku pernah beli)..RM10 sekor..dan yang paling besar pun.

Tergelak juge mikir time aku bawak balik diaorg dalam baldi time cuti raye aritu.kelakar tul. Siap ade adegan paramedik lari naik ke rumah pasal ikan dah nak pewai lame dok dalam baldi naik kete dari Ipoh ke KL.

Tak tau la nak bela ikan lagi ke tak. Rase macam kesian pun ade. Nanti mati lagi pulak kang. Ape2 pun..farewell my little dumplings. Hope you're happy there in fish heaven..

Rajinnye...

"Amboi..rajinnye wat keje"

"Amboi sibuknye dia"

"Tak gi makan ke?"

Mende diaorg ni..bkn main awal kuar. siap ajak makan lg...belum lg kul 1..12.30 pun belum lg. tau la makanan kat kantin baru ni cepat je abih. xkan la 12.30 dah kuar kot. jam aku rosak ke..jam dinding, jam tangan, jam kat pc..sampai hp aku pun aku bw kuar nak tgk kul brape. semua same je timenye.

aku tanya kat En Ali yg selalu sibuk x abih2 buat keje kdg2 sampai x makan pun..

"Mane semua org En Ali? cepat tul kuarnye..saya ingat jam saya rosak td"

 En Ali pun sambil2 tgh buat keje..dalam keadaan yang agak konfius senapas je jawab..."Jumaat.."

Memandangkan En Ali rilek je..x gelak pun..aku pun maintain je muka serius mcm xde ape2....duduk balik kat meja...hehe..tgu azan je la nmpk gayanye aku ni..

Restoran baru punyer!!!

Ah Kang : Weh friend...you know ah..over there got new restaurant..special woohh...food very delicious one!!

Mael : Sedap ka? got halal one or not?

Ah Kang : Haiyaa...don't worry la...got malay working there oso..

Mael : Ok la..you blanja ah..

Ah Kang : No problem!!kawan punya pasai!!

As they arrive in front of the restaurant minutes later...

Mael : Weh Ah Kang..you mau kena ka?you cakap halal punya

Ah Kang : Ya laaaa....watsemete?

Mael : Then..kenapa ada kasi babi free sama orang???

Ah Kang : Haiya...ini orang 'pork free' pun tatau..

Go For Gold!!!

People have always invested in gold but most of them are naive. They invest in jeweleries and lets their wives wear them. The recent fever of investing in gold bars and dinars is simply because it's becoming too hard to talk their wives into selling them back. It was like investing your money into a black hole!!!  The only way their investments reach maturity is when their wives are dead and they have no daughters. Now we have the solution everyone's been waiting for. I say go for gold bars, gentlemen!!!

Hier Klicken!

Hier Klicken is in German and it means 'click here' in English. It's pretty f***ing obvious by the pronunciation no? Thought I only know how to curse and swear in German didn't you..hah?? So don't get me started now. Well you guys are bloody hell wondering what am I trying to tell you ain't it? Enuff all the English crap already.

You see..back in the year 2007, when i wasn't so bright about blogging..hell had it yet existed at that time I'm not sure...well I like any normal rocker with savvy IT skills went looking for lyrics for a Russian rock band named Gorky Park. I looked and I looked and I looked and it is nowhere to be found. After days and days of looking and hair pulling at last I had proven myself to be masterful at the art of surfing the net and gloriously celebrated the find.

 

It was though outrageously hard to find that I had to subcribe to a German website (ironically) named Valuemail  to get them lyrics you see.. and the only thing in English in the website was it's domain name!! It wasn't easy i tell you..it takes a lot of swearing in several languages to finally able to subscribe to the website in order to get the lyrics..and that's where my German lesson began.

From that moment on I am eternally stuck to receiving their newsletter promoting ads of travels and cars and others which i don't f***ing understand what their saying. All they send me was all Freunden Ziegen...Freunden Ziegen..but thanks to the magical Google Translate I found out what it meant eventually which is 'Show Friends'. Besides all the bollocks that I have to read every now and then, thank you to my unwittingly curious kind habit of opening every mail in my inbox..some good came out of it when they sent me a picture that I'm happy to say to be the envy of every other people.hehe..recognise it??

Now that I am more German literate than ever..I hope that one day I'll be free of this German invasion on my email inbox. Well that's the end of the story. I'll be off to bed now. Cheerio